7 weeks had passed...

Yesterday was the 49th day Bee Hooi left us. Time really flies, and although 7 weeks had passed, I still find it hard to believe that Bee Hooi is no longer with us. Everytime I look back at her picture, she seems so alive. I can still "hear" her voice and her cheerful laughters.

I can still recall that morning ~ 25 March 2008 around 8 am, when Goay called me, breaking the cruel heartbreaking news. I was in total shock, totally lost for words and felt like the world was turning upside down. Deep inside my heart, I prayed and I hoped that it was just a lie and not true...

I had lost count of how many times i broke into tears especially the first two weeks. I'm a person who seldom shed tears and I haven't cry so much for ages except when my father passed away 8 years ago. On a side note, I can still remember the scene of Bee Hooi consoling me inside the changing room that morning in May 2003, when I received the bad news that my dad was critically ill in Sarawak and I was so far away here in Penang. I really appreciate Bee Hooi's kind act very much although I never tell her how much that meant to me at that moment.

Although I might look happy from external apperance, but deep inside my heart, the pain and sorrow is still there. I'm still thinking of Bee Hooi most of the time. Bee Hooi, I miss you...

WCA, Cape Town.

Dr Tan Bee Hooi had participated in and conducted several trials, studies and researches in the hospital. She had also presented several papers, both locally and internationally.

Photo of our beloved Dr Tan Bee Hooi presenting her free paper at the 14th World Congress of Anaesthesia (WCA) in Cape Town, South Africa in early March 2008. That was few days prior to her treatment of AVM in Paris.

Our dear Tacia (big sister)

Those who chatted with Bee Hooi before on MSN instant messenger or Windows Live Messenger will know that Bee Hooi uses tacia as her display name. I remembered few years back while chatting online with her, I asked why she used the name tacia. And the reply I got was something that I never expected. She said she is the eldest sister in her family, hence tacia. How come I never thought of that earlier on? Tacia = Big Sister in chinese. Well, Bee Hooi is not only the eldest sister in her family, she is also a dear sister to me, and to many of us. A sister who is always there to share our problems, giving advices, cheer us up etc.

Kevin :
Bee Hooi is like a sister to most of us, not just a specialist. I will miss her very much.... :-( I was on call with her once in ICU. We were treating a patient who was dying and I didn't know what to do. She stayed with me the whole night until the patient passed away...

Goay :
Oh Gosh!! Am really really depressed!!! My heart is aching... Even i am in Penang GH for the past one year 9 months... Dr Tan Bee Hooi is like sister to me... I kept calling her Dr Tan, but she always want me to call her by her name...

Lee :
Dr. Tan, u are like my sister... gave me advice whenever i have problem.. Cheer me up when i am sad.... i really miss u... i still remember, u do O&G list for me so that i can attend the ACLS course, even though u are post call...u teach me so many thing when i first join anaesthesia..

I will still continue to keep Bee Hooi's contact number in my mobile phone, her email as well as her contact in my instant messenger even though I will never see her online again...